Intro to Our Infertility
My name is Tay and my journey down the Yellow Brick Road | Trying For A Baby began before I got married when I got a premarital exam with my Ob/Gyn. The pelvic exam he performed happened to fall during my period and he was concerned with the volume of my flow. He ordered an ultrasound to check my uterine lining and was disturbed when he found my lining was abnormally thick. Too thick, actually. He told me I was at risk for cancer, and that he thought I had too much estrogen and it was preventing me from ovulating. I, of course, thought he was off his rocker. My periods hadn't changed much since I started when I was 12 years old and you could still pretty much set your watch to them. I always had 28 day cycles, and used sanitary supplies for 8 days, with 4 heavy days at the start. And when I was a teenager, I could actually feel ovulation. I asked the ultrasound tech if she could see if I had ovulated when she did my ultrasound and she showed me which side I had ovulated from the previous month and which side was gearing up to ovulate this month. So I knew the Ob/Gyn was completely wrong. I chose not to return to his office for his order for subsequent ultrasounds and care.
Nah, instead, my husband and I were just going to use the simplest birth control, because I didn't want to take the pill or use any kind of hormonal birth control so that it wouldn't mess up my hormones for when I wanted to conceive. And we decided to wait a few months, enjoy each other as Newlyweds, and then start trying for a baby.
About a month and a half into our marriage, I suspected that we were pregnant. I was a week late and I was experiencing some early pregnancy symptoms. Even though we weren't trying to have a baby yet. I wasn't ready to get pregnant, it was ahead of schedule so I was not totally thrilled but as we purchased pregnancy tests, I actually started to warm up to the idea of already having our baby. And then I got excited...... And then I got crushed. I actually wasn't pregnant.
So, those negative feelings I went through following my test led me to discuss with my husband starting to try early. I remember telling him that I just could not go through all those crushing feelings again. I wanted to just start, get pregnant (on first try with my regular cycles) and put all of that negativity behind me.
I knew 3 cycles into our TTC journey that there was something wrong with our fertility. I was regular. I should have been able to get pregnant easily. But the medical community classifies infertility as unsuccessfully trying for at least a year. And I had many friends and family struggle through years of infertility, so I knew that I had no right to seek fertility treatment until I hit that magical 1 year mark.
After 6 failed cycles, it was actually my sister (who had struggled for years to conceive her children) that gave me validation and told me to not let my story be multiple years of trying to conceive without seeking help from fertility specialists.
We have been trying for 8 months now and have been unsuccessful. This is our 2nd cycle with my fertility doctor.
There is still a little voice inside of my head telling me that I have no right to claim infertility when I haven't even reached my 1 year mark yet. But I am not going to stop seeking the wizard at the end of this yellow brick road. For I know, that as soon as I meet the wizard, he will give me what I want.
Nah, instead, my husband and I were just going to use the simplest birth control, because I didn't want to take the pill or use any kind of hormonal birth control so that it wouldn't mess up my hormones for when I wanted to conceive. And we decided to wait a few months, enjoy each other as Newlyweds, and then start trying for a baby.
About a month and a half into our marriage, I suspected that we were pregnant. I was a week late and I was experiencing some early pregnancy symptoms. Even though we weren't trying to have a baby yet. I wasn't ready to get pregnant, it was ahead of schedule so I was not totally thrilled but as we purchased pregnancy tests, I actually started to warm up to the idea of already having our baby. And then I got excited...... And then I got crushed. I actually wasn't pregnant.
So, those negative feelings I went through following my test led me to discuss with my husband starting to try early. I remember telling him that I just could not go through all those crushing feelings again. I wanted to just start, get pregnant (on first try with my regular cycles) and put all of that negativity behind me.
I knew 3 cycles into our TTC journey that there was something wrong with our fertility. I was regular. I should have been able to get pregnant easily. But the medical community classifies infertility as unsuccessfully trying for at least a year. And I had many friends and family struggle through years of infertility, so I knew that I had no right to seek fertility treatment until I hit that magical 1 year mark.
After 6 failed cycles, it was actually my sister (who had struggled for years to conceive her children) that gave me validation and told me to not let my story be multiple years of trying to conceive without seeking help from fertility specialists.
We have been trying for 8 months now and have been unsuccessful. This is our 2nd cycle with my fertility doctor.
There is still a little voice inside of my head telling me that I have no right to claim infertility when I haven't even reached my 1 year mark yet. But I am not going to stop seeking the wizard at the end of this yellow brick road. For I know, that as soon as I meet the wizard, he will give me what I want.
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